Why is it this way?

by jojo
(u.s.a)

Since i was 4 years old i lived with my grandma. My mom left me for drugs so me and her never communicated. Finnally when i was about 9 my mom wanted to come back into my life and i always wondered why now?

Now i know that u cant take care of someone else if u cant take care of yourself. I am 13 years old now ive been with my grandma 9 years and i am greatful that i have her by my side caring for me and filling in the place of my mom when my mom couldnt?

i still want to know why shes still not here but i take it to certain stages i dont take so far so i dont get hurt all my life i was promised a lot by her but she never did what she promised you can only go so far with hopes and dreams i still want to know why i still have hope inher its been so long and i still believe she will change i dont want to hurt and cry because of her but i guess you can only sit around and hope for the best doesnt life get better yes it does but you never know when. life is full of suprises ither good or bad but its just the way of life.

my grandma always told me your here because god has a plan for you god has a plan for everybody and you never know what it is until its the right time. dont walk around with your head down smile even though it hurts and even though im gone i want you to smile because i dont want to see you cry my uncle told me and then the next thing i know 2 days 3 hors and 25 minutes later my uncle died and i didnt have my dad or my moms shoulder to cry on because im strong and getting through life without them