my long distance friendship...HELP!

by Cecilia
(Texas)

Okay 4 years ago i met this girl and we clicked automatically. she is my best friend and has been for the past four years. but the thing is she lives in Washington and i live in Texas. And we gave each other our cellphone numbers. i even talk with her on the phone, so shes real.

anyways we fight like not a lot but when we do its stupid fights. its harder for us since we live so far away and she has A LOT of friends. i have friends too but i live in a small town and there are not a lot of people that you can trust so when it comes to true friends...i don't have any. its the same for her too. and she says she does NOT like her friends for treating her bad in the past and today. she only talks to them because they talk to her first and she trys to be nice to them but they just stab her in the back and make fun of her. So she secretly dosen't like them and dosen't want to say nothing because she dosen't want drama.

I get jealous and sad because they live over there with her while i'm over here in Texas with the not so trustworthy people i call friends. i even told her she was lucky to have them but she told me she is not lucky what so ever and they may seem nice but they really aren't. I even feel left out when she hangs out with them and not me. but she hasn't like hanged out with them in 5 months. she assures me that i shouldn't feel that way because she tells me every single day she loves me and her family more than those backstabbing friends of hers.

So my question is. Should i be jealous of her and them? Or should i not be jealous and believe her? I have been confused about this for FOUR YEARS.

Everytime i bring it up it gets us fighting because she seriously hates it when i talk about people who mean nothing to her. i just want it to COMPLETELY STOP. I do want to reason with her about this but it just tears us apart. i don't want to be crying anymore because of them. its REALLY stupid when we fight about me being jealous.

They are the ones who should be jealous because i know her WAY more than they do but i feel jealous of them because they actually live in the same state while i don't. i need help...anything please.