mehgan 14 America

by mehgan
(west virginia)

Well, this could possibly inspire someone, even though I'm only 14, and am still physically and emotionally abused. My mom, too often, makes me bruise or bleed. Mostly on my face.

If i mess up in school, or get a bad grade, or talk back, i get the worst form of punishment. She begins screaming and cursing, she's already screams and curses, but in these cases, it's more severe. Anyways, as she's screaming and yelling, i flinch, knowing my fate at that point. She will punch and/or slap me across the face about 3 or 4 times.

I mean, i cry, and try to make her have sympathy, but she has none. I'm so terrified of my mother that it's not even funny. It's like she expects me to be perfect. The only thing i'm perfect at is making friends, my social life, and i must say my mother is often jealous of my attractiveness and popularity i believe.

I'm 14, which i think is still too young to be going through this. Living in a constant fear that, if i mess up in school, or talk back, i know when i walk in the door of my house, my heart will start racing, and i'll start sweating and wanting to cry. Then, my mother's voice just sends shivers up my spine.

I go to church alone, my dad(alcoholic) takes me and drops me off. My sister doesn't believe in God, but i do more than anything else. My mom, is just emotionally and physically abusive, and my dad is just scary and makes threats, often telling my mom that i deserve to be beaten. I mean i just need the comfort in knowing that i won't be alone, or scarred for the rest of my life, but my cuts and scars are deep. Mostly in my heart :((

Meghan,

Thank you for taking the time to post your story, but because you are still a minor who is being abused, it is my duty to protect you. I need you to contact me directly (through the contact page), so I can help you further.

If we should not talk, I highly suggest that you contact the Department of Children and Family Services Hotline in West Virginia at 1-800-352-6513. Let them know what has been going on at home so they can assist you further. If you are afraid to talk to DCFS, talk to a teacher you trust.

You are a wonderful young woman who has a lot of courage. My advice is to continue to open up about what is going on at home, as you have done here. Also, continue to keep that close relationship you have with God, that will get you through the tough times. You will inspire many people!

My best,

Brandy Shirley, M.A.