Julie,25,USA

by Julie
(NM, USA)

Ok well I was molested as a child by a family member. I was 5 years old when it started and lasted for 4 years, when I finally had the courage to speak up.

The person who abused me all those years was my cousin. His parents baptized me as a baby and treated me as their daughter. They have this monster as well as another son who is younger.

When the abuse started it was touching me lower area with my clothes on. As the years went on it got worse. From touching me with clothes on, to completely undressing my bottom half and touching, grinding on me as he was undressed as well.he was 9 years old when he started to abuse me.He would also make his brother flash me as well. I hated going to their house and would try to make up every excuse to not go, but in the end would be forced to go and told not be disrespectful.

He would threaten me with telling my parents I was misbehaving and cursing. At the time I thought I would get into serious trouble if this happened, which would not have been the case. I saw a movie on Lifetime about a girl who got molested and that inspired me to tell my mom about what had happened.

At the time my mom was pregnant with my younger sister, so of course everyone said I was just jealous. No one believed me,(except for my immediate family) to this day they still don't. My mom cut off all contact after I told her, but at the time was too afraid to get the police involved.

I was very promiscuous as a teen and very suicidal. It was very easy for me to believe whatever boys would tell me.

I have tried in the past to mend our family, even talking to this bastard who ruined my life.


I went to many counselors for 6 years before I found the right one for me.
I have since stopped going to counseling and stopped talking to that person. I am still very angry at him and always wish for him to burn in hell for taking my innocence! I as well as my mother and sister no longer talk to the majority of my mother's side of the family, and are very happy to have them out. My mother apologizes all the time for not involving the police, although I am not angry with her. I am now trying to pursue charges against him but am having problems doing so.

I am now married with four children. I protect my children to the point sometime where I can be smothering. I am very open with my children about my experience so that they are not afraid to say no or to yell when they are in harms way.I don't believe they will ever be in any situation as mine because of how I educated them and how protective I am.

I want to also mention that his brother having been violated by this monster as well, has stood by his side from the day I spoke up!