i'm a bad friend

by galilahi
(ireland)

I really don't know what to do and i don't feel like i can talk to anyone about this...and all these other stories are about people having bad friends and stuff....but i'm the bad friend.

I'd known a guy for a year and we became really good friends, but one day he told me he was bisexual and i was the first person he told. Then i was at a close friends house and they asked me if he was gay and without thinking i told them that he was bi and then they told some other people...then he found out i told them and he was ok with it at the start and we carried on as normal, he even told me thanks for telling people so he wouldnt have to. but then he text me that it wasn't for me to tell and that he didn't want to be friends with someone like me anymore.

i was really sad and didn't know what to do so i just left it....then i found out he was telling our friends that i said he should be happy that i told and now i'm becoming really paranoid and i think that no one likes me...and i feel like bursting out crying every minute. i hate myself so much for what i did and sometimes i think about killing myself over something so stupid. i'm only 14 and i have to go back to school soon with him and our friends.

but i don't want to feel like this all the time