i was the best critic of myself and my luck factors once upon a time

by indira sangapu
(visakhapatnam, andhra pradesh)

when i entered my teens,the process of this self-criticism started in me. till my teens, i was never in a stage to think about anything. everything happened just like that without any struggle. but,the minute i entered my teens,situations demanded me to think for a while regarding how things can be done. what ever i used to think should happen, always went reverse. this made me start criticizing myself and my luck. but as days kept rolling, i realized that i'm trying to do things above my capability. but still,my mind-set didnt change. once,i gave an exam in which i didnt get the expected result. this situation made me come to a stage where i've considered that i'm the worst person living on this earth and i've decided to end up my life. but,fortunately, some power( i consider it as my luck factor ) saved me. at the same time i got married. my hubby,being a psychologist,recognized this very soon. so,he understood what has to be done and started guiding me in all aspects by counselling me time to time.in this span our one year married life, he made me realize that i can achieve anything when i had a strong desire for it. now,i'm entirely different.now,i'm working as an Assistant Professor in a famous MBA College. so,ultimately,its just a matter of changing our inner thought process i.e. our intra-personal thinking to reach the heights of success.