"Keep off the Grass" and Mothers then, will let us know we failed will let us know when we are stupid all the while telling us they love us warn us with burning effigies till we feel like Joan of Arc facing a world like heretic sinners even God will shun; and Mothers will rip the chord at birth while wrapping it around our necks and squeeze out the very life they gave us.
every day the letters come like addendums to syllabi the extra tests, impossible to pass the extra points we might attain for being the perfect we can't
the grade contingent on meticulous reflection in a blemish free mirror, who are we at middle age but a shaved lawn with ornaments to impress the neighbors yet one that can't be walked upon or with in bare feet, we are too cutting, too cynical, unaccustomed to touch
and Mothers love and love more till the mind becomes sore with diluted confusion and takes baby steps back to the womb till we map quest the hospital from which we were born wanting so badly to go back and start over.
and Mothers love and love more never understanding the gore of heart the chaos rising like blades of grass that cower the sun
because too many rainful words splattered self-esteem left rope burns on their courage to move forward and a report card to be ashamed of...
and Mothers all the while tell us they love us.
erin-cilberto |